I am a product of two broken people who married, had two kids and fought the entire time because they didn’t know how to do what they were doing… #marriedlife I’ve often times questioned my life and the paths I have taken, the things I have seen and why I was born into the family that I belong to. I have been paying attention and the more I learn about God, the more I understand Him, the more I grow to understand me and gain answers to the questions that I ask.
I think about the things I have done, the places I have been that I shouldn’t have been and my thought process during a time when I was soooo broken and I think about where I could be and should be BUT… I’m not. God protected me… He set me aside… He set me apart… He has filled me with sooo much HOPE and LOVE that sometimes pours over into situations and people that… don’t deserve that part of me. (learning)
As I sit here and process I hear a whisper that says you are a product of your environment but you are not a victim… Their faults and flaws do not have to be yours… as a child you learned by what you saw and as an adult you have the power to examine those faults and change the negatives to a positive. Sure you will fall back into the old way of thinking when things don’t seem to work out the way you feel… You are human, but you don’t stay there because now… you know better so you do better. It’s okay to love, but guard your heart (chicken wire)… The time will come when you will see that it is okay to love freely, but let him make your heart comfortable, not the other way around… he will know how to because he will understand you and the God you serve. -Amen